lynette : D

2008-01-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

had a long and tired today.
yet with quite alot of fun[:
headed to school the same time as yesterday ,
meet them at the same place then walk the same route.
was raining today so there's no assembly,
if not we're gona hear ~~grandmother stories~~ again.HA.
slack around in class till the 'camp' instructor come.
so we got some kind of beginning sec 3 camp during school hour.
played some balloons game then proceed to stealing/snatching of balloons^.^
and this is how it goes:
we had a 'house' of our own,
and we got to have guards to takecare of the balloons to avoid the our groups go steal/snatch our balloons.
so, the girls will help to guard the 'house' while the guys just go around and steal/snatch the balloons.
the scene was chaotic,
sheena and i just stand there and watch them protect it,
while the rest were so busy with the balloons(:
after that,we went for recess and then back to the hall for more games.
the next game target is to cross over to another place(island) without any contact on the floor.
3e1 got the best idea or smth, while others are alright.
but our were super last minute but damn cooool(:
our ropes and strings dint help much but they just tied all the strings and ropes tgt and 'connect' the 4 corners of the chairs(islands) tgt without organising it well.
but the guys just had a last minute plan and they suceed.
all the guys got to lift up one of the chair(island) but its not easy because they got to carry the weight of idil's with a thick string only. so yeah, idil manage get it through(:
clear the place then went back class to slack until 220):

quek and coach fetch us back to old whitley for training.
our current outdoor and indoor is unavailable.
i thought trg would be ~~tired and boring.~~
but the outcome came out to be the other way round[:
had 5on5 ,8on5 and alll..
kinda fun, and also... ~~PAISEH.~~
hehheh.
went tpy to bus home and.....(:
haha.

first day of schoool(((:

2008-01-02T14:54:00.000+08:00

forgot to dye black my hair last night,
so i had to wake up at 53oam in the morning to just dye it back.
wash up, bathe , look at the mirror and give a big smile[:
because its THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOOOOOL [[:
supposed to meet eileen they all at prime at 645am but i was late.
to my suprise, they are even later. haha.
meet up then walked to school together.
and i was trying my very best to describe what happened during the countdown but i just kept laughing.
and she, being very idiotic, keep suan-ing me.
reached schoool, got very excited to see whos in my class(:
heh. assembly then got spot check-.-
and i got caught :x ms.tan wanted to call me out but she kept laughing,
so that mr.indian teacher(co-form i think) pick me out to the other corner for checking.
sat there for like 45 minutes? till quek come and give me the white form to get send home.
REASONS: coloured hair.(just dye in the morning)
hair length, long.
just like that, SEND HOME[:
i went back to class to get my bag but i dont really know where isit =X
so i just walked around and i saw ms.tan talking then realised my class its just there. haha.
slack in class for awhile then talk the indian teacher then went home.
complain to grandparents, went to cut hair.(because i dont wana tie/clip)
asked to come pasir ris and so i did[:
so am here to blog(:

COUNTDOWN(:

2008-01-01T18:56:00.001+08:00

time pass damn fast.
another year had passed again.
and its now 2o08! [:
hopefullly this would be a good year for everyone!;D
and back to schoool. ZzZ

went cityhall to meet gokmin kelly elaine and nichole[:

walk around there then meet ilina they all ? then walked around again.

hard time looking for somewhere to have a bite.

haha.

went to subway in the end.

xiao huimin came to look for us,

decided to go to esplanade to have a good view of the firework.

but we ended up gg to clarke quay looking for them

then slack around just to wait for the firework[:

after the firework, then headed to adel's house.

kelly & elaine dint go ):

so only left gokmin and i.

and gokmin is damn drunk.

she had 24% of vodka on her. hahah.

talked alot then slept at 5+ till 3+?

ate,explore(jay's stuff) then home((:

2007-12-30T01:14:00.000+08:00

woke up and meet adeline to pei her go make team jersey with yiying,
then met gokmin & shoered(shurui)
was so not myself cause i just keep quiet through the time i was at queensway.
until we're in the bus, talking about some ghosty things
then i started talking alot.
was feeling bored so went to town area to pool.
and its like quite expensive.
wanted to have bus ride until the game but decided to walk around at ps.
went to billy bombers(:
but gokmin and i dint pay for it, both of us were feeling quite guilty though =/
anw, thanks shurui and adel(:
for that 1cup of shake plus pussy cat with steak(:
sat there and talk quite quite alot(:
and talked about alot of things [;
went to MOS burger to milkshake and shurui thought we wana go to M.O.S
HA. after buying that, then went to meet sheryl and meining at prime.
and i got cake and butter on my shirt):
but its alright lah[:

2007-12-28T14:58:00.000+08:00

went for training today(:
thought it would be a tiring and boring trg but it turn out to be oh-so-fine((:
had 4 on 4 all the way till trg end.
went to eat with teammates at nearby coffee shop.
i bet this coming year there will be alot of whitleyans crowd around there during lunch time(;
back home after that and now iam here[:
gona clean the whole house again,
the floor seems to be dirty.
just repair the air-con,
so gona enjoy it and watch my disc(:
before enjoying,
so gona take a bath,
stink like nobody's business =X

2007-12-25T15:39:00.000+08:00

hohoho! merry christmas!!

stayover at sheryl's house ytd.

the day before ytd at joyce's house.

and the day before joyce's house was wendy's house.

had a totall of 3 stayovers in a row.

and now, am super tired.

lol.

was going around getting presents for 2 days.

give out present and i received G-string from mn!HAHA!

slacked at sheryl's house then around 11++ gg 12 we went down

called and wish people merry christmas!

ahahah.

alll the way till today afternoon(:

; thanks for all the 24 lollipops that big frame of puzzle and the 8 letters.

surprised that you'll give me the puzzle and am glad you gave me(:

thanks loads=)

thanks for writing those i wrote in your letters.

am glad you can still write it down excactly the same.

thanks for all. and hopefully i can get back my previous 4/5 letters((((:-1214

winnie the pooh plus lots of candies(:

with a monkey keychain(:

heh. thank loads (:

patrick and alot alot of chocos(:

plus the atristic drawing(:

xiexie=)

thanks crystal for the monkey keychain and choco(:

& sheryl for the effort for the painted tee-shirt[:

2007-12-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

out to meet yahui and wendy at yakun for lunch.(dint eat)
then call that JOYCE but she's still sleeping when we called her.
like omg, we're supposed to meet at 1pm but she's still in bed at 130++
so we have to wait for her then shun bian wait for yahui's customer .
went to funland and play .
joyce came , ate chicken rice then to orchard.
walk around and get a patrick for bla and i regretted buying due to some reasons
but afterall its alright la xD
went to buy stitch for ble but also regretted buying for some reason.
but not as regret as the previous one.
saw chip and dale (((((; damn cute. haha.
walk around like some insane humans around town searching for christmas present(:
currently cannot think of what to blog.
so just a simply one here(:

2007-12-23T01:49:00.000+08:00

i realised that iam so into redhouse now ^.^
so curious abt it luh.
so anyone wana pei me go ?((:
found the picts and info abt it.
kinda scary though =/
and i want STAYOVERS badly):
who want? sku is re-opening soon .):

yesterday was a super sway day for me ):
chao ji wu de sway those kind.
first time take bus can fall off the side.
somemore is the place where i love and always sit.
arghh.. later i know no one in the bus except for sheryl and meining(:
went bugis ytd, saw ST JOLEEN AND HUIFEN (:
eat le than shop(:
bought a topman wallet , take it as i got that for christmas((:
meet daphs awhile home.
thats all for yerterday(:

went for christmas shopping today(:
went to tpy then to causeway point.
was taking train to causeway and saw this lil malay girl.
very very cute [: i look at her and she smile at me(: so i smile back.
started saying hi to her and surprisingly, she hi back
lol at i hi-five her , and she hi-five back.
but her mother turned and look at us.
but who cares, she's cute ;D
got smth for ******, and a monkey for myself!(:
the rest tmr(:
and seriously, i need to love myself alot (:
i neeed more presents to feel that iam loved((:
heh.

2007-12-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy,
iam unhappy.

super sad,
super sad,
super sad,
super sad,
super sad,
super sad,
super sad,
super sad.

disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed,
disappointed.

moodless,sian-ed, restless.
~~envy~~ by people around me,
thing that happen to them are moving smoothly for them,
definately not for me)':
not in much mood to do anything.
or maybe, just trg.

2007-12-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

' & and maybe it was meant to be .'

supposed to meet sheryl and all at ocbc at 10am.

but i just couldnt wake up.

so decided to meet them after that.

went sbc around 2++ to watch match.

and wooooo..(:

talk alot today more than the previous weeks and all.

which i think its good?lol.

if crystal were to take it=x LOL joking,seriously.

bus-ed down to amk hub for dinner then home(:

2007-12-11T20:01:00.000+08:00

' the more i think ,

the less i believe .'

match was postpon again due to the rain.

so bring forward to tues(today)

went over to sheryl's house with wendy and ray.

then meining .

stay awhile then leave cause i got to meet jingying and anzie at 63o.

i realised that my phone wasnt with me until am at sheryl's house void deck.

went up and wanted to collect it,

but i dontknow how to call her.

so i leave my phone with wendy from ytd evening till today evening.

just now 24hrs.(: lol.

meet them at amk last cabin then to sk.

daphs and chao came down to pass me things then went back,

jy and i then went to eeni's house.

talk , eat , slack . no drink);

nanette supposed to come but sadly, she dint):

jy and i went insane with the blanket and pillows.

and that anzie keep eatinggg and eatingggg..

and ba eeni de jia dang zuo zi ji de jia.

zhen 'zidong'

lol

bueh tahan all toh.

but eeni and choyting toh first :)

then jy choyting and i on the bed and i sleep in the middle(:

you an quan gan [:

anzie and eeni on the floor.

next day wake up surprisingly i dint lai chuang.

but im the 2nd latest to wake up adn the first yi ding shi that anzie lee deh.

lol. delay delay then eeni and choyting leave first then leave the 3 of us at her house.

buy breadfast then bus-ed down to ccab.

then leave for match.

go cpcc take fone slack then home(;

~~you'rekindacute=X~~

2007-12-10T01:03:00.000+08:00

" just for the better ,

i do ."

match was postponed to tomorrow due to the weather today .

so went to sbc with sheryl mn and ais ppl(:

watched match till 8++

then join them go toilet to disturb jingying.

3 of the bballers is joining NBA next year.

damn cooool.

and maybe that #o7 can be my idol=x

keep slamdunk-ing and all.

then prize giving=]

after that cam whore.

went to eat with jingying adora nanette biru anzie peisze ahkiaw choyting and eeni.

peisze act funny.

peisze: ' wo yao seafood mian bu yao seafood.' -.-

then we started saying sambal prawn without sambal,

chicken rice without chicken ,

duck rice without duck and so.

i think the aunty is damn pissed with us cause she's trying to take our orders

and we keep deesiao-ing and keep making alot of noise.

aunty starting to give attitude.

lol.

food is here everyone start eating.

choyting eat damn damn fast, she machiam just tun fan.

jingying itchy hand go make the milo then anzie act smart go poke poke until got hole=.-

then all started to snatch the milo tin.

and geysiao say go home go home.

leave not long after that then nanette suggested to ton tmr.

and al agreeed(:

crap alot on the way home

and all the cold jokes.

home after that not long then(:

2007-12-09T01:58:00.000+08:00

D A M N I T .

went to meet daphne after her cip at city hall

and she's there to look out for people what she supposed to do.

lol.

and today we walk alot alot.

finally get to settle down but not long after i was bitten by the ants.

like only me.

arghhh , irritating >:(

then went home around 1oplus(;

you know iam always missing youall.

but maybe after certain things we aint that close.

and you shld know iam not feeling good abt it ]:

9o%?

thats without 28

but with 28, its 6o/4o

i dontknow how to describe it,

i dontknow how to say.

but its not a feeling that i always feel.

this time its different.

thought of why i dont want.

because of the surrounding,

because of the what i dont dare.

but i dontknow why that song just give me a special feeling.

akind of one kind.

2007-12-06T20:04:00.000+08:00

'' ; its always there to scare me .

a nightmare ."

~~it has been so long,~~

~~so far,~~

~~yet so wrong.~~

~~i've never been so lost before.~~

~~i've never been so scared before.~~

~~it seems like iam the only one left.~~

~~it seems like there's none of you to be with me, anymore.~~

~~)':~~

1428*

; i dintknow it could be so sour.

i dint know my mood will change.

and maybe i dint know that iam falling deeper.

2007-12-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

:S H E R M A I N E T H I N (:

stay gay(:

went to meet shermaine to go pg to watch match.

but both of us were late but not as late as daphne.

meet her at pg lrt then train down.

watch-ed awhile then went to sk .

shermaine's a big eater . she ate twice more than us.

and still complaint to us that she's still hungry.

walk around slack and all .

then to suntec =) and saw garlicbreadman!(:

waited for mel to come then we delayed for quite long then go for steamboat:D

and shermaine went crazy la. like omg.

then after that she's like so quiet , then back to normal.

cooked for 1 round then shermaine's off for her date.

ha!

then mel daph and i went for the second round(:

and ytd's night the man tou cannot make it); damn sad.

but then mel and daph go kao the man tou then become not so bad.

hahas. great job:D

throw alot of things inside the soup and they keep 'washing' the food inside the soup.

but afterall , the soup taste fantastic[[:

and that daphne just throw the egg inside-.=

LOL and when we're gona finish our food,

daphne's dad called like quite alot of time?

just to fetch her home but he doesnt know his way to marina bay

and thought that marina bay was marina square.

and daphne had a hard time talking to him .

while mel and i just sit there and laugh our ass off.

lol , pei-ed her to look for her dad's car and we took like 45mins to look for it?

when its just outside carl's juni0r?

l0l. then we went to the toilet but daphne called and insisted to fetch us home.

but mel and i planed to make a trip to the esplanade but whne we got there,

it was like so empty. so we decided to go home. bt i forgot to bring key,

so was wodnering if i shld go mel's hse or home.

but ended up in mel's house.

wanted to vatch the last train.

but it stop running.

so we rush to catch the last bus but in the end, we realised that the last bus had left at 11.45.

so bobian cab to her house.

bathe-ed and all then wanted to watch tv but then there's no show to watch.

except for the fei ge show but got fei yu qing then abit sian diao.

so ended up sleeping=x

and both of us were perspiring because its damn damn hot.

woke up at 7+ cause the maids woke up and then i ended up sleeping on mel's bed.

and realised that when she's blogging,iam still sleeping=x

lol. talk alot today and yeah,

break dance:D

LOL! then bikes and all((:

then back home and sleeeep(:

2007-11-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

" ; time has gone now and the moment has passed

when I had the chance to try and make us last

all alone now and it’s no ones fault but mine

couldn’t see the truth I had them blinded eyes

you got moved on still I don’t give a damn

gotta get this off my chest while I can."

damn this okay.

got super pissed off todaay .

someone just irritated me like nobody's business.

like early in the morning.

what a bad morning i had that affect me the whole darn day.

washed up and alll then slack around before going for match.

and i got 'lost' in city hall.

so many different line.

make me find it like a retarded foool.

andi got super fed up .

got onto the train and there's this aunty keep staring at me like fcuk.

like whats her problem?damn you.

arghh..

am not in the right moood for everything today.

kns.

match postpon. angry because they made us travel sooo muchhh .

but happy because i dont want to play./

supposed to go meet adel but both phone just died.

went home after that and stupid bus soooo long.

pekcik walk home under the damn rain.

;and you're gone,

can we take it back?

~~1214~~,you're not forgotten.

2007-11-28T03:06:00.000+08:00

so much you've done for me,
but so far, what i've done for you?
just giving you all my sorrows and let carry my burden.
iam sorry.
and i guess this is the first time iam crying for you.
maybe you're the reason for me to forget her*
but i dont dare to have such hopes
iam afraid that i'll hurt you again.
and maybe you cant forget him .
because he's alr part of you.
am not worth .
not because of anything but you're too good.
just like how you felt like how he treat you.
you need him , and he needs you.
dont wish to say too much.
but maybe this is the first time,
;ILOVEYOU.

ADELINEPHUAYANLIN(:

I SWEAR I LOVE YOU((:

THANKS FOR ALL(:

2007-11-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

'' ; if you call me today ,

i'll just said iam fine ."

;everything just dont go right for me like seriously.

i dontknow how long this is gona take.

let it end and make my day easier.

let me know iam in the wrong and forgive my wrong doings.

2007-11-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

" FEAR . "

stayover again(:

and just 2 glass of it.

laugh so hard about 1 funny video=x

then was trying to kill that daphneyim.

and she dint wana surrender. ass=x

lol.

and now garlicbreadman is now her's/

rahhh.. nothing to accompany me.

lol.

went home to sleep then for dinner(:

the suddenly change iam so not used to it

i dontknow howcome suddenly all of ya'll so cold towards me and so.

but well,isit drfting? ):

2007-11-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

'' a kind of fear ."

supposingly to ball but in the end ,

we went to sheryl's house to show.

and the we is meining and i.

lol.

and today,

meining is damnnn crazy la omg.

because sheryl took out her eye liner and draw for us.

at first is meining, she draw till her WHOLE eyes.

like some kind of zombie or something.

and sway enough, sheryl use it on me too =x

draw draw draw and meining started the video thingy.

and so she had a few movies of herself acting/dancing/singing/reporting and talking(:

and finally.. she stopped her 'movie'thingy and continue with the show.

went to eat after that and she start taking her own movies AGAIN.

and the themes are: VAMPIRES , FOOD ,a SONG.

walk away and back to the same coffee shop and ordered lychee.

stupid aunty is damn atittude and the lychee seemed to be expireeed-=..=

seee the aunty old dontwant say anything.

arghhh..

after that , went home(:

~~arghh,~~

~~to think think that i'll be in the same team as you.~~

~~it was at frist alright,~~

~~but as time goes on, i really think that that's enough.~~

2007-11-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

" ; * wasnt the right one.

go for it ."

wake up at 1.o9 to meet daphne they all?

but was ended up late.

but haihao, i wasn't the last one to reach.

it was melissa, surprisingly.

lol. looks like everyone changed uh?

like except me and maybe st?

LOL!

went to suntec for dont know what business with stacy sabrina daphne and mel.

PAULINE ANG was supposed to meet us but in the end she dint.

ARGHH..

wanted to eat carl junior but then suddenly dont feel like.

and its getting so bored and maybe ~~wierd~~

so went over to mel's house.

and i brought GARLICE BREAD MAN!:D

watch movie then home((;

~~choosetogoforitorletitgo?~~

~~idintknowiamsooafraidofit.~~

~~isitbecauseplainlyiamafraidthatit'llhappenagain?~~

~~orbecauseicantbeartoseeyougethurtanymore.~~

~~idontknow,andtocompare,~~

~~iamnothing.~~

goforitbahs(:

2007-11-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

" its better to left unsaid ,

to avoid any false hope . "

ton-ed 2days alr and iam ultra tired.

one is at chermaine's house and the other one is at daphne's house.

was suppose to drink but ended up cooking fries and maggie mee.

chermaine talk on the phone life as if iam not presence.

so well, join pebble and joanne in the room playing cards.

till around5++, pebble leave and all of us went to sleep.

wake up around 8+ to meet 'em at yishun mrt station to sas to watch a friendly match.

leave early to go home and bathe .

but i fell asleep so iwent to meet daphne late.

as usual, she got to wait for me =x

slack around at j8 and we walked around for like 7times?

and 1 big round outside j8?

bishan and tpy is getting boring=x

waited for shermaine thin with CHLOE and that duck, after that we went to sk alr.

daphne's dad fetched us to their own place then we started messing up her place.

snatched her pillow and soft toys(((:

MR.GARLIC BREAD MAN !!<3

play majiong for awhile and i was a lil blur and watching tv.

so i dont i won in the end, it was not allow in the game-.=

ended the game after 3 rounds.lol. then her parents came home then eat then slack at her room.

drink about 3 plus. then watch ~~emily rose~~

pei-ed daphne all th way cause she say she wana drink even more.

and asked me to tiaojiu for her.

and its sucessfull((((:

she got seh and obvious i got to fu her back to her room.

because she herself cant even stand properly.

NOOBIE=X

had heart to heart talk from like 4+ all the way to 7+?

l0l.

but welll, i think i know her very well more[:

lol.

CHLOE is damn funnnny please! see her cant stop laughing la!

l0l.

she went off then all of us play while then SLEEEP!

woke up went to eat leave sk(:

2007-11-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

" certain things were better left unsaid. "

welll, there's nothing much about today.

just travelling around.

and sorry to sheryl about it.

2007-11-16T01:11:00.000+08:00

" ; was my heart feeling sour?

i dont know, neither do i wana know ."

for the FIRST TIME ,

i was 3minutes earlier than crystal.

but crystal wasnt late luhs. she reached on the dot(:

then sheryl came down too to go ccab tgt(:

chatted and all and crystal realised that they were playing on the same court as us when we lose to ~~zhs~~ but win ~~cedar~~

ohwellllll, i've got like nothing to say and dint know how to react.

drop that topic ,iam afraid of it=x

watched ais vs yuying then watch netball match.

so amkss was reallly good in it(:

oh, and that anzie sprain her ankle.

so now she's having a pigleg=x

takecare 695683=x

went to cpcc to ball-ed awhile then home after that(:

~~;please please takecare of yourself.~~

~~dont get injuried anymore.~~

~~youseemstogetalotofinjuriesrecently.~~

~~andthere'snothingicandoactually):~~

~~iwish i couldcare.~~

~~but i wasnt needed.~~

~~i wanted to rushtoyou.~~

~~but it isnt my job.~~

~~ifonly that time i could show those concern to you.~~

~~its toolate now.~~

~~but i thank you forallowingmetoheldyou.~~

~~thats alr the best thing i had for the day(:~~

~~iknowtherisntanyothermeaning.~~

~~neither will ithink thereare any other meaning.~~

~~hopeingto tell youagain.~~

i hope one day you'll know,

~~ily~~

2007-11-14T03:08:00.000+08:00

i think my blog is rotting like nobody's business.
went to pri sku to meet daphne shermaine thin and chloe.
lol. and i got call DUAPAI by DAPNHE YIM HUI YU.
lol.
went to ice kimo to slack around for like a few hours?
then we play cards .
and being a kind soul , i pei daphne till 3pm then went home.
fall asleep then went to eat then to meet them then go to wendy's house(:

~~idontdaretosayoutmyfeelings.~~

~~becauseiontknowwhetheritstrueornot.~~

2007-11-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

wanted to wake up at 8+ to watch tv.
but iam tooo lazy to wake up.
so i continue to sleep until i got to prepare myself to go out to meet crystal for match.
went to j8 first then to sbc(:
crystal wanted to cab down just to see who jump ball. but of course, we dint.
watch ytss vs unity then ai;s match/
slack then back to amk.
wanted to go and eat but i dint(:

" ~~i dont know why am i having such reaction just now.~~

~~it just happen naturally and i dont want to make it obvious that i care.~~

~~because iam not the one that is reallly needed.~~

~~but i cant resist of not caring. but well , as a FRIEND(:~~

~~;you're the first i want to continue loving.~~

~~;you're the first who give me this feeling.~~

~~;you're the first whom i dit regret to be tgt with~~

~~;you're the first and perhaps the last whom i reallly gona wait.~~

~~;you're the first who keep the love in me going.~~

~~;you're the first that i really want to keep my promise for you.~~

~~you keep your first for the others.~~

~~iam not whoyouwant,sadly.~~

~~爱过的人我已不再拥有~~

~~错过的人是否可以回首?~~

~~你过的生活似乎很快乐~~

~~付出的太多,无法解脱~~

~~我应该如何才不会是这结果~~

~~after all that we've been through~~

~~I will make it up to you,~~

~~I promise you~~

~~and after all that's been said and done~~

~~you're just a part of me I can't let go~~

2007-11-05T01:58:00.000+08:00

went to queensway to get sheryl ray and wendy's shoes and bag tgt with joyce & meining.
went to eat then walk around then bus-ed to suntec .
went to sheryl's church awhile and i feel rather rude.
because i fall asleep when they were talking =x its not because it was very boring but because iam very tired due to the day before we ton at wendy's house.
wanted to go for tg's training but suddenly dont feel like going for dont know what reason i dint go .
on the way when we wanted to go to take the mrt , we took a bus out to the mrt station.
and i was eat donut.
and there's chocolate fillings inside and i know it.
but i didnt know that it could get ALL OVER my damn face .
some irritating PPL just laugh and say 'bodoh' like WTF .
went to the toilet and had a good wash up then to 111.
ball awhile went to eat then back home to bathe(:
wanted to come out and ton again at wendy's house but yahui cant go.
so stay at home and watch vcd(((:

meet at 12++ at cpcc then ball(:
went off at 4.50 like that bahs to go to MR.TAN'S HOUSE(((((((:
until like 11?
ha a great time laughing talking cam whoring(:

i dont know how you have that ability to keep us motivated.

i dont know how you could let us listen to you sooo much.

but i know that you're the only coach that can let us/the rest to be like this.

you got us motivated,

we'll miss you .

H.A.P.P.Y.

B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y

P.O.H. Y.A.H.U.I.!!

birthday over le doesnt mean you're forgotten(:

dont worry be happy .

keep that smile on your face everyday [:

cheeeeer up man!

we all will be here for you :D

2007-11-01T02:18:00.000+08:00

;& i know you guys would(:

never will you guys disappoint me:D

had a great talk(:

it has been quite a long time ever since we had such great conversation.

and iam hoping for more .

and mayb ALL of us to be back at one=)

crystal:i miss the talking we used to have.

this day, iam waiting for finally arrived.

let all the good time continue my bdfriend(:

sheryl:we used to be very very very close.

let those days be back , and all of us will be united as before(:

let all happy stuff happy again=D ;my bdfriend:D

jolene: you're not forgotten.

although you seldom go out with us, we're still standard-4(:

although the days aint the same as before, the status will stil remains the same (:

; dfriend!((:

not forgetting ray wendy shuxuan wendy meining and alll (((((:

2007-10-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

all the lil problems between all of us shld come to an end.

this isnt working.

somehow it dont feel the same .

lets see how it goes tmr.

may god bless us(:

2007-10-26T00:10:00.000+08:00

thought of going school today but in the end,
i cant wke up-X
meet sheryl and jolene at last cabin at 1.39pm .
went to school eat and all but ended up playing cards.
and i won 7bucks plus at first,
then after training i won again untill 13 bucks.
but when chermaine and i bet 5bucks, starting to lost money.
wth.
and i lose it all.
so wish me luck for tmr to win it all back(:

2007-10-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

" i hope the BADthings
dont come back for more=/ "

~~not too long neither it is short.~~

~~not too close but also not that far.~~

~~glad to know but it seemed that i dont know anything more about you any longer=X~~

~~we've done the craziest things,~~

~~we enjoy playing in those childish acts.~~

~~but will that day come by again and again?~~

~~as many times i want it to be?):~~

~~do ra mi fa,~~

~~as i rmb that night clearly.~~

~~so what had happened to us , so broken up.~~

~~if i were to secrasfised just for all this to happen,~~

~~i would =[~~

~~to be close as before,~~
~~is that possible?]=~~
~~we make a 'unpleasant' day to a happy and memorable one.~~
so can we make that lil effort for evryday in my and yours' life?
:\~~our monkey face,~~
our monkey act,
our monkey laugher,
our monkey see monkey do dont seemed to be there.
we were very close until after that 'mia'
i dont know had changed it so much.
i wish for happy things to happen like EVERYDAY D:
~~our fun days aint the same if you realised.~~
our common topic seemed to be out of place now.
nothing seemed to be the choice of our's.
the joke,
the 'insult',
the gossiping,
the common things,
the night we planed for holi aint the same.
evr since after that unknown misunderstanding.]=

~~from what i see i dont see the past fun i had.~~

~~all i see is a distance iam away from all of you.~~

~~so near yet so far,~~

~~i dont know what are you'll talking about.~~

~~i catch nothing.~~

~~i dont think i know whats going on.~~

~~i dont wana ask abt it because iam afriad i may jjust got jected by it.~~

~~iam hoping nothing much alr.~~

miracle , wish to be granted for r/s.

i dont need it anymore . what belongs to you will eventually be your's.

~~all i wish is everything is fine and perfect in friendship.~~

~~god bless please!~~

2007-10-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

" nothing remains the same . "

i dont seems to be one of you people.

you all seemed to be in your own world and i seemed to be in on my own.

then what else more can i say?

whatever i say , i got argued back by someone.

the way you all talk to me and the way you all talk to each other is way too different.

how could i accept the fact that this is happening to me?

i seems to be so neglected, somehow.

you peeps give me a cold feeling and i dont think i know whats this going on.

i think too much or not its not the main thing.

the main thing is, what has made thing go on in such a nasty way?

i walked away and i got said by attitude.

then what about some times when some walked away?

peeps makes me sounds like iam always giving attitude.

i dont deny that recently i give peeps attitude but peeps also dont know whats my reason.

giving me wierd sights is what i recently get.

so totally my fault?

there's much to say but i know i cant.

because of the ~~friendship~~,

i choose to handle it all by myself.

NO MISUNERDTANDSING PLEASE.

2007-10-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

"so much things for me to say,
but its better to be unsaid."

recently, things seems to be like hell to me for no reason.

and looks like i got some unknown reasons in me.

i got pissed easily and have serious attitude problems.

peeps, bear with me and sorry about that.

it seemed to be drifting,

it seemed to be wierd.

it seemed to be alright, but the fact that it was totally wrong

so training is up next?

i dont think iam prepared for trainings.

somehow, something is still inside me.

training now seems to be my unknown pressure. somehow.

i thought iam very prepared for it, but looks like iam so damn wrong.

the moment when training is involved, bu zhi bu jue zhong wo gan dao jin zhang.

those that worried that things will get wrong or smth.

i doubt iam over that,

it has bothered me for quite a long time.

let me overcome my fear.god bless.

so much i want to say,

so much i need to say,

so much i wish to say,

so much i have to say,

so much i got to say

seems to be so wrong to be said.

2007-10-08T01:46:00.000+08:00

#10 was damn shock to hear that 3 songs.

goodbye,just so you know & never let you go.

and the image was so strong that i thought it'll come back.

but i hope and i dont want it to happen.

its more damn enough,

iam afraid that things will happen again.

too afraid cause of da and la

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And i know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your hurt and I sympathize
And I'll never critisize
All you ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want hold you back from where you might belong
You would never ask me why,
my heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself,
than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say - but goodbye
You deserve a chance of the kind of love,
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful for me
I don't want let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want hold you back from where you might belong
You would never ask me why,
my heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself,
than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say - but goodbye
You would never ask me why,
my heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself,
than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try,
and though it's gonna hurt us both,
there's no other way than to say goodbye
Goodbye

I shouldn't love youBut I want toI just can't turn awayI shouldn't see youBut I can't moveI can't look awayI shouldn't love you, But I want toI just can't turn awayI shouldn't see youBut I can't moveI can't look awayAnd I don't knowHow to be fine when I'm notCause I don't knowHow to make the feeling stopJust so you know This feeling's taking control of meAnd I can't help itI won't sit aroundI can't let him win nowThought you should knowI tried my best to let go of youBut I don't want toI just gotta say it all before I goJust so you knowIt's getting hard toBe around youThere's so much I can't say Do you want me to have the feelings? And look the other wayAnd I don't knowHow to be fine when I'm notCause I don't knowHow to make the feeling stopJust so you knowThis feeling's taking control of meAnd I can't help itI won't sit aroundI can't let him win nowThought you should knowI tried my best to let go of youBut I don't want toJust gotta say it all before I go. (Just so you know) This emptiness is killing meI'm wonderin' why I've waited so longLooking back I realizeIt was always thereJust never spoken I'm waiting hereBeen waiting hereJust so you knowThis feeling's taking control of meAnd I can't help itI won't sit aroundI can't let him win nowThought you should knowI tried my best to let go of youBut I don't want toJust gotta say it all before I goJust so you know(Whoa, Just so you know,Whoa, Thought you should know) I tried my best to let go of youBut I don't want toJust gotta say it all before I goJust so you knowJust so you know

The rain just never seems to bring
The joy I feel the same.
Everlasting pain of my loss remains.
My heart can’t seem to learn to part
The hold you left you mark.
All that I dreamed of now it seems so stark.
Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.
The way you left me on the train.
I don’t know what to say.
I remember everything of that day
I can’t believe we’d never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset our one last romance
Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

2007-10-08T00:09:00.000+08:00

went to j8 to collect their crumpler bag then to amk hub then train-ed down to united square(:
because today is the 7th of October(:
which is .. BEN AND JERRY DAY!(:
went to 111 after that then home.
some phots uploaded[:

sheryl is hiding her face.
trying to take the clip :X

unknown-x

the number:14(:

hello! xD

23 deh :D

camera shy, you believe?

they are shy as they just DO IT =X

happy taking(:

yo handsome(:
SHERYL!

BIG SORRY TO SHERYL because i accidentally knock her nose using my head =X

dont angry le laaa(:

big big S O R R Y !

2007-10-06T10:13:00.000+08:00

it has been quite long since i last blog.
lols.
went out to met crystal sheryl andwendy at yishun macs then to nscc ball-ed awhile.
and i am glad that SHERYL allow me to play(:
heh. slack at cafe for quite long then train-ed down to city hall meet meining.
see slack talk play then bus-ed down to yishun again.
and we chased after the bus and we can catch it[:
so next time we shall try running after a bus from 1 bus stop to the other(:
heh. ate kfc and then slack awhile home(:

2007-10-01T18:06:00.000+08:00

schoool is so 'volent' todayyyyy.
just during schoool hours, i think alr got like 3 fights?
first fight: kwok fang seems to like want to hit ms.wu and create a din in class because she threw a MP3 out of the window which belongs to stella's friend.
then he scold, kick, bang, push , shout and alll.
and i think its qute a coool screne:X
went to art room as ms.wu asked us to go because we skipped her lessons.
second fight: idil walked out of the class angily because levain changed to the other group beause he claimed that the others didnt wanna do it.
so edward was in the same group as them so he asked why is idil soo angry and so , idil explained.
and same thing, edward got so mad up then he went to confront levain.
and levain guailan guailan with edward. then gan hao kwok fang come in .
ms.wu was merely just looking and him and he scold-ed ms. wu again and then levain.
third fight: because of ppl steal things i think. not very sure.
so overalll, today is a fighting day :D to me.

went home after schoool and went to treat my ankle and knee.
my ankle's ligament tear and my left knee ligament is tearing sooon.
so n balling for 1-2 weeks):

2007-09-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

" i wasnt disappointed,
i was just feeeling happy for ya(: ''

chinese paper is so-so.

but i dont have confidence in it :/

because i didnt bring the most impt thing to school.

lols.

went enter for ljs then accompanied crystal to get her contacts.

then meet she and ray at macs.

got so bored so we just write about birthdays and alll.

went to arcade and we played this very fun game which i dont know whats that called.

ahahs.

went to eat kfc and yahs...

saw someone and someone seh((:

happy ending uh? hahas! can deh(:

then after eating we slack awhile hen back to arcade(;

then home!(:

2007-09-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

so school isnt that bad after alll(:
and surprisingly, i didnt sleep in class today (;
i ALMOST did but nahs, i didnt[:
and i chiong-ed my history project but i didnt hand in . wtf -.-
ohhh wellll, forget it. herh.
lols.
SCIENCE is crazy.
so muchhhhhh to rmb and alll.
ahhhhh.. looks like i got to eat some animals brain to 'bu' my own brain.
lols. joking.
and omggggg... the world is changing..
like nobody's business?
i got to know something and i think its damn funnnyyy.
ahahas.
got daiji after schoool, supposed to watch all the way bu in the end never.
so we leave first and train-ed down to yishun.
and got deesiao?
like sooo omggg. so funnny and wrong please?
ahahs!
slack at macs till 7.30 like that then train-ed home(:

2007-09-25T13:57:00.000+08:00

so whats the best solution now?
whats the best thing for us to clear this problem?
whats the best thing for us to forgive and forget?
whats the best thing for us to be like the past?
so now.. whats the best thing for everything to be normal again?

may all bad things be gone.

2007-09-24T20:39:00.000+08:00

" i dont ask for more,
i just want the standard ones to be happy,
&
everything to be normal again "

; i want the smile back ,

; i want the laughers ,

; i want the jokes we used to share ,

; i want the past ,

; i want those activitiness in us back ,

; i want more outings with ya'all ,

; i want it to be like that past ,

; i want the lame-ness ,

; i want the things i want it to ended up :\

; i dont want goodbye ,

; i dont want stress ,

; i dont want unhappiness ,

; i dont want us all to drift apart ,

; i dont want us all to be sad ,

; i dont want any of us to be strangers ,

; i dont want any misunderstanding ,

; i dont want sorrow ,

; i dont want saddness ,

; i dont want see us all cry for anything ,

; i dont want to ..

~~leave without you all ))):~~

within a week,

everything change so muchhhh and that isnt a good or happy things.

i dont want to have a gap inbetween us.

i dont want to have misunderstanding.

" its now and always that t***t is there,

no matter what ."

i dont feel confortable with your crapping and alll.

just sooo wierd without it.

we're afraid.. afraid we might say the wrong thing and allll.

i dont know what to say.

but i seriously dont feel good about today.

i dont want this to continue,

can we get back like how we used to be in the past? ))):

2007-09-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

so whats wrong with everything around us now?
so wrong.. everything seems wrong.
it was okay at first?
but why out of the sudden everything seems to change?
because exams are coming or what?
this is getting from bad to worse and NONE of us like it.
damn shit to all probs.

training seems to be a nightmare to me now :/

which i dont want it to happen.

i wanna go training.

i reallly want to. but the thought of what iam thinking pulls me down.

i seems to be so left out, everything is wierd.

evrything is now beyond control.

everyone seems to be drifting.

so whats the meaning behind all this dman shit bllody probs?

god bless you,my DEAR .. friend.

2007-09-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

as usual,
flashed back again.
everything happen just like a lightning had strike.
so fast and over soo soon.
it came without any warning ,
without any signal.
when they feel like it,
they'll eventually come.

the feeling was so strong,

that had lasted for so long.

your heart's missing and thats why you go.

you was never satisficed no matter how much we've tried.

never will i forget how you make me feel loved.

the tender of everything you ONCE had given me.

even if everything had just happen ACCIDENTALLY,

iam still willing to make this mistake for your love in return.

23rd june,

where all the 'mistakes' happened.

without knowing whats right and wrong,

we held hands without knowing.

slowly slowly,we locked our hands tgt as in we're tgt.

we announced indirectly to the spectators about us that lead them thot we've gt back tgt.

we 1st hide it somewhere, we first keep in secretly.

then we make the 1st move,you started to say you're man-er.

i started to argue abt that.

and so erything become so obvious. at the same time, everything become so wrong.

without thinking, i just speack out what iam thinking.

"are we counted tgt?" i asked.

you said you dontknow.and so i didnt probe more about it.

but without letting my words pass my pig brain, i asked if we could get back tgt.

so yyeahs, you gave me your words and we seemed that we couldnt leave each other anymore.

and at time , i see the word entenity.

i thought i know all the misunderstanding and i know i got to give in no matter what but still,

everything had come into an end.

instead, it last only for 2o days.

2odays with that much love?

compared to those nasty attitude i had

iam just so sorry to take so long to realised it.

iam just so sorry i love you a lil too late.

iam just so sorry to dote you.

iam just so sorry that i take the blame too late.

i dont ask for a 2nd chance because i had it alr.

iwill be too greedy if i ask that from you.

for all i wish , you to happy and not sad for others(:

for you in the firts 2 mths?

2007-09-16T03:22:00.000+08:00

i thought ytd and today will be a unpleasant day but i think im so wrong.
it turned out to be a memorable day though (:
thanks everyone((:
last year got 2 cakes,
this year got 4 cakes((:
2 and 4 tgt =24.
and 24 is .. HMMMMMM.
last year i won someone's heart:X
but this year i think at least i won a birthday celebration?
LOL this is enough and i dont ask for more [:

went to serangoon macs with eilen yanting serene hsiao lei and gerrie as they wanna celebrate my brithday.
got a tiramisu cake and after cutting of cake, they planned to pour flour at me.
and yeahs, they did. and lucky i pour back but not at yanting and hsiao lei. (gerrie didnt join us)
lols.
so nvm .
went macs toilet and clean up then slack around then got smash by a lil bit of cake.
lol.
then went to bball court then they play 5on5 .
lols.
then back home changed then to meet yahui(:
and im sooo sorry to make her wait.
she waited for like , 8.14 to 8.41 ?
lols.
so damn sorry about it.
lols.
they asked me to go playground and then delayed the time.
went up again and they gave me a surprise[:
they cooked and bake a cake for me xD
and had MY bleach character ((;
my cute guy <3s
played game with food then FLOUR again :D
then cabb-ed home.

went to mak mn then sheryl and ray at ocbc.
then slack around.
was surposed to go yahui's house but due to certain reasons we decided not to go.
then wendy and yahui came down and play ball tgt(:
and thank you for the baking of cake((:
ball-ed till9++ then go ljs to makan.
slack around then home :DD

i thot it was nothing when i saw you.

i asked myself whether my feeling was there anot.

i didnt reallly jump into the conclusion and i just dont wanna know and think abt it.

i play/talk/joke/disturb/laugh/eye contact/smile/stare/argue with you.

slowly..the memories flashed back as usual.

i feel as if we were tgt at thatmoment.

we sat tgt,you pulled my pants and all.

but i did not continue with that thots.

almost immediately, i wanted to just walk away.

but i know i may not have another chance.

so i stayed.

its damn stupid and dumb for me to think it this way.

but how i wish i could have just grab your hand and look into your eyes.

but you'll think im insane/nuts/crazy/baichi/retarded/noob/idiot/stupid/dumb/ass.

how i wish i could just hold your hand for just that moment. but it will never gonn happen again.when will be the next time iam gonna see you?

i wish i had something from you then i could keep it entenity.

memories is not enough for me, give me more. take it as im greedy.

as this heart is always still here.

so empty inside :\

2007-09-13T15:57:00.000+08:00

monday i went school tuesday i dont.
wednesay i went school today i dont.
so school has become somewhere i can go in and out?
goshhh.this cant go on. but there's no motivation anymore:\
so will tmr be a good day ?
idontknow.

2007-09-10T21:57:00.000+08:00

okay. first day of the weeek.

and everythign seems to be weird and strange in class and schoool.

i dont know why but yahs. it just seems so wrong somehow.

got very happy when school ends(:

and we went to yishun then to woodlands then back to yishun again.

got all the things then crytal need to get for her airen uh?

ahahahas.

not long after that, we went home and had a good talk about the past again.

wellll,

~~i decided to let it go.~~

its better for me to let it go then hold on.

you got your freedom now and i guess i need my own freedom .

~~i've got the key to unlock this heart of mine. (:~~

2007-09-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

went to manjustri for friendly match adn that quek is a nuisance :X

irritating nehneh.

omgggggg.

i dont know how to go on with bias people around.

i think i'll just go crazy if things continue to remain the same.

got jolene's dad's car to yishun to wendy's house.

and had camwhoring in the car.

and her sister is CUTE((:

this lil small girl:D

with her trademark ; TWIST(:

smiling at the camera is her favourite.

and she cover the monkey face i had.

but love to have the limelight.

but this time wendy is the one having it!(:

2007-09-06T23:35:00.000+08:00

water fight.

and yes, i spoil the bed! hmphh.

that peaceful night.

the second fall.

put your right hand out and shake it all around

up up up the hill.

sheryl didnt fetch me. thats just an act :X

woahs!
finally back from chalet!!!
and it rocks the night on!

DAY 1((:

woke up at 8+ to bring jolene's bag over then she went to make her ic.

around 11+ wendy sheryl and jolene came over my house and bring everything down.

and i almost wear the wrong pants okays.

lols. went to pump my bike then cab down to the chalet.

and thats a indian couple come and snatch our taxi. omggg. so wtf.

but nvm lahs. we have a kind heart so we let them first.
arrived alr went to check in and all but we then realised that we can only check in at 3pm.
so jolene and i waited for them while ms.tan went to dont know where.
wait and wait. chiong burnout and all finally they arrived.

and im so tried then i fall asleep on my bike :X

went to put our bags in the chalet , check the things clear the mess wash the stuff then rest awhile.

went out buy things and stuffs.

bond-ed, play,laugh,cheeer, disturb,tgt,chiong and all.

nothing much during the 1st day.
except when sheryl and m***** fall down :X

no offence :D

and they say i'll fall too.

true enough.

went back washed then went to bed around 2++.

DAY 2 [:

woke up at 11+ and we're all very tired.

dont know why but ya. TIRED.

juniors mingyi and yating went to see the sunriseif im not wrong.

and if i know i alsoo wanna go.

but nahs, im still in my dreams uh.

went to the market to da bao things back to the chalet for breadfast with sheryl zishan pauline wendy i think.

and poor zishan fall.

then shun bian bring yating's bike go pump air and i bought coconut.

and this uncle and aunty go cut the coconut and we have to bring it all the way back with the water dripping.

then i stay in the chalet until bbq.

but before that we were playing cards upstairs and sooo paisehs please.

i spoiled the bed because of SHEENA ookay?!

i actually won a sum of money which is not alot but the most among all of them

but after that i starting to lose money and that sheena keep suan-ing me.

then she shake shake shake the bed then i just lie down the bed sank down.

LOL and its not completly my fault because the bed has a problem before that alr.

hahahs

.and everyone broke into laugher, and that includes me (:

went down to play muscial chair then the steping of legs.

shermaine's action:(step on seokyee's leg)

seokyee says: wahs , you think you stepping ants uh.

lols. i dont know how to explain but its very funny.

then after that we rested awhile then prepare for bbq.

quek came first but we dont really care him.

cause the main person is MR.TAN((((:

he ride my bike and says that he ride frm chua chu kang to the chalett.

ahahs.

and I save the day for the 'campfire' just by 1 try (;

of course, not me alone but with yating and serina. then after that the rest at the other side of the 'campfire' join us.

then i went to bbq.and i think im not bad in itjust that my chicken wings will chao ta. BECAUSE the fire is unstable okays.

then ziling suan me):

then after that we decided to play water bomb and bomb SHERYL 1st ((((((:

and PAULINE betray me , because she's supposed to tag team with me but she use the water and pour at me first.

suan le, we then change target and aim tsz ying.

then the 3 of us decided to bomb yt so we pretend that we're attacking each other then we surrounded around yt then bomb her.

after playing, mop the floor and all , clean up then pei ms.tan to cheers buy things.

but yt and i ride bike go so she ask mingyi to bus with her.

and we reached faster than them :D

after buying , on the way back to the chalet and indeed i got my punishment for laughing at them for falling down.

that bloody fall :X

bike gear came out and the seat of my bike is a nuisance so i fall on the road like dont know what.

but yt say my falling pose is nice :X

*bhb face*

ms.tan and mingyi then came overthen walk back to the chalet.

bathe and all then intend to play midnight majiong but its way too small so we decided to sleep.

we thot we got to check out at 10.10am so we chiong all the food and all but we then realised we got 3 nights 4 days instead of 2 days 3 nights.

but we decided not to stay.

the rest went to j8 while i went home have a good sleep.

untill 5.33(((:

2007-09-01T03:49:00.000+08:00

" as my feeling is getting stronger

and it seems so wrong . "

its 3.51am now and weeee.

not asleep because they just watch some cd in crystal's house.

and i dont know why am i getting some wierd feeling :X

and just yesterday seemed to be so fast.

mr.tan had leave the team.

and i bet everyone is gonna miss him goddamn muchhhhh.

welll, we cant change the fact and we're gonna see him on wednesday (:

hoefullly it'll be be a memorable one.

nothing much today.

just that i havent receive my ppr cause i didnt go school :X

this is impossibel but true.

this is so strong but wrong.

this feeling is taking control of me and i cant help it.

its so sudden please.

and the song and image keep appearing in my mind.

and i wonder about it alot.

oh lord , may i get the answer iam hoping for.

because i think i've fall deeply into it.

i'll sacrifice almost eerything for it.

may god bless me(:

6639376[:

2007-08-30T01:24:00.000+08:00

omg. its 1:24am and i can fall asleep):

and i so goddamn miss the past.

let this really really be the last for once and for all.

i want it that way.

that day when i first msg you.

that day when we confessed.

that day when we first got tgt.

that day when we went home tgt.

that day when we went out late.

that day when we were laughing away.

that day when i met you before we were tgt.

that day you ask me to drink your drink.

that day you ask me to ball.

that day you were sad.

that day when you first say i love you.

that day when i first say iloveyou.

that day when we held hands.

that day you came down to meet me.

that day when i went down to meet you.

that day i make you cry.

that day you thought of breaking.

that day i piggy back you.

that day i send you home.

that day you were injuried.

that day you saw me cry.

that day i saw you cry.

that day you were there for me.

that day i slept on your lap.

that day you were crying and i didnt do anything.

that day we had a bad day.

that day we quarrelled almost evryday.

that day we were attitude-ing each other.

that day i first cried for you.

that day you first cried for me.

that day i got your heart broken.

that day i bought drink for you.

that day you bought dinner for me.

that day we ton.

that day we hugged.

that day i make you wait for 2 hours.

that day i make you cry on our 2nd month.

that day you cut for me.

that day i make you angry.

that day you laugh at me.

that day i laugh at you.

that day we watch movie.

that day you got me a shirt.

that day we got each other a milk bottle.

that day i throw thuntrums at you.

that day you scold me.

that day i 'shouted' at you.

that day you got jealous.

that day i got jealous.

that day you cry at mjr.

that day i was upset.

that day was the worst day.

that day i said i would change for you.

that day we walked alone tgt.

that day we went out for dinner alone.

that day i asked you to have dinner at my house.

that day you said you want to send me home.

that day you say FOREVER.

that day you asked for patch.

that day you said i was lying.

that day my heart is cracking.

that day we first talk on the phone.

that day when you were complaining.

that day you were crying to me.

that day you pass me the letter.

that day i cry sooooo badly

that day i say i still love you.

that day you say your feeling faded.

that day you shouted on the phone.

that day you say you've regretted ending.

that day i did really change for you.

that day im waiting for miracle.

that day your feeling come back for her.

that day you found your new love.

thats when i love you.

thats when you say you cant let go.

thats when you sweettalk to me.

thats when i cant let you go either.

thats when you asked me to listen to 'zhi shao hai you ni'

thats when you scold me stupid.

thats when i call you silly.

thats when you smile to me endlessly.

that when you dote on me.

that's when you protect me.

thats when you defend for me.

thats when you sing my praise.

thats when we shared the same song.

thats when you keep the best for me.

thats when we first played ball tgt.

thats when i realised im toally into you.

thats when im super obsessed with you

thats when you no longer really care.

thats when your interests get lost.

thats when my heart crack more than you do.

THE WAY I DO.

2007-08-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

there goes my day again.
i didnt go school again.
soooo dead and i dont know whye.
subjects are failing, mind is confusing,iam worrying.
damnnnn , its time for me to sit still and start to underline the key notes in my textbooks :X

went to get things with crystal. first we went to peni(dont think wrong) to get jeans.
but it ended up so ... and we keep laughing at the skinnies.
lols.
and we didnt buy anything there okays . waste our money to cab there-.-
train-ed down to buggis and get clothes.
wanted to get button shirt but ended up getting normal t-shirts .
got a grey jeans too (:
and a total spend of $7o.
and toallly broke now . i still have to get a new wallet because my wallet now is damn kuku.

there's match tmr(:
happy but scared.
ohman, Bdiv. im sooo damn dead.
i feel like my life has been shorten for 123456 years .
hopefullly tomorrow i will be playing for cdiv or in fact , iam SUPPOSE to play for them(((:
goood luck and may god bless me (:

suddenly, i still miss the past alot.

for dont know what reasons.

you have been appearing recently?

so how have you been?

just hope you're fine.

2007-08-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

i thought school wont be a good day for me but it turns out okays :D
nothing much about school , just love zibi-ing in class.
my class hobby(: and i kick the class door today and i accidentally hit idil.
and i feel damn guilty please. soooo sorry about that :X
and i didnt know that the impact is so hard.
ahahs!

went to eat pasta after school then to zishan's house for making the thing for mr.tan.
so sorry i dint help much because i scared i did it wrongly/untidy/ugly .
and we play 'blackout' today .
omggggggg.. its damn funny please.
esp tsz ying and ziling.
the way they faint is damn funny.
and yating that lil girl , she was sooo afraid to play but in the end,
she have the guts to challenge it.
lols.
they keep playing it over and over again.
but poor wendy just can blackout.
she tooooo 'strong' for us to handle.
ahahs!
zishan says: wendy shi yao yong da yun ta :]
slack awhile jiu went home(:

2007-08-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

" Try to throw the pictures out of my mind
and to leave the memories behind . "

YESTERDAY(:

went to meet crystal wendy and ray and yishun(BK)

to prepare sheryl's birthday.

and we had cam whoring.

lols.decided to post today because we didnt wanna let sheryl know about it.

and the pictures are lame yet funnny(:

((:

meining's mouth and my face.
mn is so man with that on ! mouth((:
retardedS(:
CRYSTAL(23dehs)

LAMERS!
wendy and crystal.im NOT digging my nose please. the mess :X

TODAY [:

meet at 12.30 at last cabin preparing to go town to buy a new urban male singlet for sheryl.

went to herren but they only left with the display piece.

so we went to city hall and get it.

after gettting it , we then went to buggis to look for crystal mom.

and crystal told us her dream and its damn funnnyyyy please.

lols.

bus-ed down to yishun after that and continue doing our gift for sheryl.

chiong-ed all the way because its so last min =X

went to sheryl's house and wanted to light the candles up but my lighter aint working.

so we tried borrowing from her neightbours but they dont seems to have it.

so fake please.but nvm.

then she was about to leave her house going to her granny's house but lucky her parents allow her to go with us to wendy's house.

but we went to her house first and PLAY CAKE!(:

ohmygod, all of them was supposed to target sheryl but i dont know why im involved with it too.

but it was fun.

and so sorry to sheryl because i think i've dirty her WHITE clothes.lols.

bathe-ed at her house then cab to wendy's house for campus superstar.

lols. the after that home sweet home(((:

2007-08-25T01:49:00.000+08:00

" you have become part of my life . "

okaays.

i dont know what is wrong with me.

i miss school for 3 days .

which means that i only go school for 2 days out of 5days.

jiaalat.

this cant go on.

but i dont have any motivation for me to go school:\

in fact, a lil bit of things discourage me to go school :X

and im gettting used to not go school and stay at home for the whole day.

wellll, hopefullly i can find my motivation in schoool.

or maybe, someone from other schoool?=X

~~i think im falling deeper for you:\~~

~~and the chance are impossible.~~

~~i dont know why but i keep missing you today.~~

~~out of no reasons.~~

~~i so feel like calling out your name every now and then :X~~

2007-08-24T00:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYLONGHUIMIN!!!

ONECMDERHS[[:

okays.i dont know im laughing/smiling at my phone and for no reasons.

maybe because of ......

lols.

school i s so-so.

training was fantasic!!!

i thought it will be a rather not in mood type but i was wrong.

i realised sheryl and i can pei he quite well uh?

hahaa.

just that i cant get her speed because she's fast and my ankle and knee is not in good condition.

lols.

went to eat banmian at J8.

was being lame towards meining.

lols.

in chinese..

meining: wo bu chi dao yao chi zhao shui jiao hai shi shui jiao lehs.

lynette: chi zhao shui jiao bu hao . ni dong wei she me mahs?

meining:wei shi me?

lynette:yin wei zhao shui jiao hen you.

meining:-.-"!

lynette: wo hai mei jiang wan . dang shi hen hao chi (:

meining:=.=!!!

when we're leaving J8,

i told meining something i told sheryl.

lols.

lynette: other than doing sit ups and crunches , you know what other ways to had build your stomache muscle?

meining: what?(in chinese)

lynette: you laugh more bu shi building your stomache muscle lohs!

meining:(leng diao)

2007-08-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

didnt go school again.
was not feeling well and i'll be late if i go to schoool.
so went home and had a good sleep.
went to meet granny for lunkch kam dinner and i earn a watch(:
now,sitting in front of the comp doing nothing.
looks like its time for me to reallly study and catch up now(:

~~i feel bad for not going training~~
because zishan's jersey is with me.
so sorry about that .
and i knwo that if i go for thurs match ,
i most probably hui bei jiang.
because i didnt attend training for quite a long time:\

2007-08-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

Maybe it's safer not to say that I care .

maybe its safer to say I dont love .

i dont like going schoool):

the thought of going school makes me feel like sleeping-.-

siaaaan.

went home halfway because im way too tired and had a very bad muscle cramp.

no poitn staying in school when i cant concentrate.

so i went home and had a good rest .

went off to watch match then to amk to have dinenr with crystal .

nothing much about today .

its time for me to really give up.

its time to say i dont love.

its time to let it go.

its just time to ...

forget about past and move on.

2007-08-19T15:00:00.000+08:00

" does the song we share still exist ?

): "

went paris park for bbq .

and it turned out not to be a very good day uh .

eileen got quite seh and blah blah .

got a heart to heart talk and alll .

and all memories flashed back .

wellll, expected.

wanted to go meet daphne at city hall after that but i didnt .

because im afraid that i'll reach wendy's house late .

hahaa.

went home with shuxuan then meet her again to go wendy's house .

everyone is so HIGH .

esp shuxuan .

laugh until like dont know what .

but not only her laaa :X

still got me and'WO DE YAHUI '

lols .

drink and play at the saem time .

and i think i drink quite alot last night .

btu i didnt seh ((:

what a good drinker .

lols.

just joking .

hahahas .

slept at 5+ and we dare each other to wake up at 6.30

all of us 'report' AWAKE except for shuxian.

lols.

and i may not 'report' it because i'll be in my dreams but nahs ,

i need the toilet :X

so i woke up and shun biaan 'report' awake .

lols.

went back to sleep after that then wake up at 12++

then watch the hongkong show .

hahhah .

then now i shall enjoy it((:

hhaa!

2007-08-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

" it may seems alright phycially
but not the emotions .
call us emotional if you want "

today is a very tired day for me for no reasons ?

and i got no time for my D and T paper .

sure to fail ):

receive a very terrible and heartbroken news .

which i shall not reveal it .

what is going on ?

every unhappy / major / stupid / unstable / bad things is happening to us .

i dont know what is gonna be next ?

i would prefer it to hurt physically to others .

says: " everyone is tired of everything thats happening .

it seems like everything will vanish within minutes sooon . "

))':

insane .

2007-08-16T01:50:00.000+08:00

" take a look at me ,
and tell me whats wrong with me .
because iam getting crazy . "

had some druma class for chinese today .

and i got sooo paaisehs okays .

but nahs , its okays .

class entertainer (:

hahaha .

and i realised i cant concentrate my work when im sitting behind .

but im doing fine when im right in front .

so teachers ,

if you want me to catch my attention ,

let me sit in front and do so (:

lessons was kinda fine with me today .

not much of complain x)

and im crazy today .

i laugh / smile for no reasons .

my mood change easily .

you wont know if i may just explode right INFRONT of you .

im wierd this few days .

you wont know what im thinking .

you dont know what im staring .

maybe me myself and i dont even know what iam doing .

so ..

BEWARE !

(its not a joke )

PLEASEFCUKOFF !!

because you're nothing

but a piece of shit in front of me .

knn .

dont think i see you then wanna say hi to you or whatever shit okays .

think you're good looking ?

well , you're 'FCUKING UGLY '.

booooooo .

you think you're who .

you thinki wanna see your lan jiao bin arhs ?

fcukshit .

walk pass dont have to cover your shit face lahs hors .

get a life man .

you think you're what ?

superstar ? kns . there's mirror in the toilet .

please go and have a GOOD look at yourself lahs .

fcuking bitch . ccb .

you're not worthy of my time .

2007-08-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

nothing much today .
just went to treat leg today .
and the uncle say its serious .
lols .
and i cant ball for maybe like few days ?
siaaan-ed .
went to great grand mother house for dinner .
its damn wierd lahs .
becaus ei dont go with all the youngster there ?
so i just sit alonge like zi pi er tong and then listen to songs .
lols .
then back home .

so now my feeling faded .

and i know it cant last for long .

you got your own world and i guess i've got mine .

but the passion you plant in the middle of my heart ,

is a passion that never stop .

i got so many feelings i dotn know how to express it .

confusion is in me .

i dont know what to do ,

i dont know how to say .

let me be me ,

and let me be emotionless .

2007-08-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

forever ,

so how long is my forever ?

i was limping to schoool today .

and i think that my ankle is slightly to the left alr ^ ^

eileen was damn hyper today and sheena seems to be quiet today .

they seems to have changed their psersonality .

lol .

art is damn funny today .

i dont know why but yahs .

its damn funnny .

eileen sheenna and yanting leave me behind more than twice okay .

im soooo sad ):

lol .

crystal told me much things .

ohman :\ and i hope what i've heard aint the truth .

ZOMBIE: ''prove me wrong one day alright ?

because i still believe in you :X''

crystal got damn pissed by someone(shall not mention)blah blah blah .

after schoool went to vivo city to eat and pass thing ?

and i got a shock from what i've heard !

its damn wrong and like .. so impossible please ?

lol .

sheryl says : iwant to eat dao sa biang

meining and i says : biang ? biang who ? huh ?

meining says : dao sa biang ling long bao !

everybody:LAUGH (:

bus-ed halfway to bugis then biang cab dao to SBC to watch match -.-

then after that , was actually waiting for letter but nahs , in the end we took the same bus .

this time , this isnt the same as the one i had before .

but welll , this time we play dare and allll.

damn funnny !!!

i had a very great dare for crystal and wth ,

the dare returns back to me .

damn paaisehs and waitttttt .

im not the one who release it first .

i thought i'll be at least glad for that last hold ,

but no , because it has disappoint me so :\

went to eat lj but i didnt eat .

i should have ate it just now >.<

after that , went home with crystal because ...

its better to go home early :D

what am i suppose to do ?

what am i supopse to reaction ?

im speechless ,

im lost ,

im .. totally in the maze .

as i walk home alone today with my leg limping ,

i think alot .

you ask me not to .

last as if i can .

ni jiao wo re he jie shou ni he ta de hua mian ?

siaaaan .

how am i gonna endure this whole period with the love going strong ?

siaaan-ed .

thee's so much i wanna say , but i forget .

sigh .

oh whatever):

2007-08-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

if you were mine ,
i'd be your everything .

went to treat my ankle today and i think i need to treat my left ankle this time .

went to meet sheryl and wendy to study at bishan library .

but we ended up playing?

lols.

isit true that if there's lynette you cant study ?

well, thats not true okays?

sheryl and candy can study .

as for 'wo de' yahui,

she was studying halfwhile then chiong-ed psp all the while till we leave the library?

lols.

shuxuan and i keep playing the guessing of songs using meining's laptop?

hahas.

had a hard time choosing a place to have dinner .

but in the end ,

we ended up in amk hub eating mini wok .

lols .

went to international foodfair again and ate the ice cream .

slack awhile then home (:

and now,

having game with crystal .

i think we'll play until like 12-1+++ or smth.

ahaha.

and i have the urge to get alot of piercing suddenly.

LOL!

maybe tmr is the day,

the only day i'll be seeing you):

sigh.

2007-08-09T01:46:00.001+08:00

我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你遥远的梦
就算是变化挖空我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受做了那么多
使她拥有我该得到的温柔
(使她拥有我没看过的笑容)
爱着你是我改不了也不愿改的习惯
要放开哪有那么简单
了解你是我说不出也不承认的悲哀
包容你是我体谅的爱
也当作应该不要说对不起
原来你要的不是我
不要说谢谢你什么
你永远在我心中
can u tell me why
这样的我-
你也曾爱过不是么……

歌手：徐婕儿

2007-08-09T01:22:00.000+08:00

you took my heart away,

when my whole world seems to be grey.

okaaays,

whitleyans tend to be late always.

so next time if you wanna meet any of them,

you got to inform them half and hour before :X

lols.

was supposed to meet sheryl, zl & zs at causeway point at 12pm.

but we ended up meeting each other at like 12.45?

wanna eat soul garden and causeway point.

but there's tooooo many people.

so we decided to go town and eat it.

but there's even more people.

bt we decided to wait for the seats and our effort pays off(:

had a great lunch kam dinner(:

lols.

was actuallly very quiet in the beginning.

but in the end, 4 of us did burst into laughter(:

ahahs.

went to look for psp.

then trained down to YCK.

thought of using my 1o bucks to chiong arcade tmr but i spend it on the tickets uh.

but nahs, didnt regret.

cause we had cam woring inside and all.

so funnnnn:D

full of laughter and all and craps.

lols.

went home around 9++ (:

i dont know which word hurts you.

im sorry if i did.

but ya didnt reply me.

i ASSUME that you didnt wanna reply or smth.

i dont know what you're thinking.

i dodont know what you want.

tomorrow,

alll the memories will flashed back again.

this time,

its gonna be strongly then before.

because that's the very first time i msg you and on that day on our 1st day knowing each other,

good things had happen.

and i thought this time,

i'll have you beside me.

but nahs, this day will not happen.

i've planned my plan welll for tomorrow,

and yet,

icant fufill my plan.

just 1 word from you and i'll get you anything that ican.

but yet,

i didnt get that chance.

maybe its just....

idontdeserveit):

2007-08-06T21:35:00.000+08:00

its just emotions taking me over,

caught up in sorrow , lst in the song.

nothing much about school today.

stilll same old thing(:

just keep sleeping and sleeping in class today(:

heh.

down to watch ai's match.

zhs win :welllll, speechless.

was supposed to ball-ed today but ended up talking in long john.

had a very good talk today uh.

memories , examples , laugher and all.

lols.

ohman:\

how i wish the time will just stop there forever.

good time always just pass so damn fast.

will that happen again?

i dont think so .

i think that SHORT moment in the bus could last me long.

and i dont want to pin any high hopes on it.

neither will i want to give myself false hope.

let that short moment be my last kao shan.

i make sure i wont rely on that.

i know i dont want to live in a fantasy.

this moment have beeen staying in my mind for the whole day .

i know i cant rely it long but at least it can last me a little longer.

i dont believe in miracles until the day you came back.

just from that day,

a new point of view,

i've been touched by an angel.

its impossible but it's true.

there's a feeling inside and i want you to know.

i cant let you go.

i think there's no chance for us to get back tgt ):

this time,i think even miracles cant help us to get back)':

when i let it sink,

its all over me.

" i'd give you everything that iam.

im handing over everything that i've got.

cause i wanna have a reallly true love.

dont ever wanna have to go and give up.

the tears are pouring , and i wanna make it worth the fight."

2007-08-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

wasnt at home ytd and today until like 8+?
lols.
went to clarke quay ytd(4th august2007) with isabel and shermaine thin.
had a damn great time together.
went to explanade and like kan dao alot of people?
went slacking around and all.
got ballons((((;
and isabel chased for a ballon like nobody's business.
its damn funny i tell you.
you'll laugh your ass OFF.
ahhahaha!
okayys, enough of the craps.
trained down to clen and there's this stupid uncle touched my BALLONS>
bloooody asshole.
he's so FCUKING disgusting.
ahahhas.
then we're heading back to bishan tat line.
we keep disturbing someone and someone.
damn funnny!
TO THE RIGHT,TO THE RIGHT!!
HAHAHS.
our songs xDD
aiyo/aiyas/hello/hi/say goodbye.
lols.
trained down to YISHUN to pass letter.
then to jasmine house a while ?
till 12+
no more train or bus to explande so we cab there.
spend our night there.
and shermaine is lousy :X
she CANOOT ton!
she's the 1st one to sleep lahs.
my godness,
she was on the phone with someone so isabel and i was talking about dicso.
because opposite from where we're sitting,
there's a shop that is damn loud and it somehow caught our attention.
and i start my craps.
e.g : why do ppl go chiong wear so little clothes to 'cover' themselves?
reason:because it may be easier for them to strip.
and alll those dirty craps. (NC16 (: )
and there's this 3 young teenagers(girls)
dman funnnny okaaays!
my godness. should have make friends with them on that day lahs.
dman , we miss our chance of fun.
ahahas.
and i have GOOOOOD impression on this 3 girls.
they arrre realllllly dman fcuking funnny!
deep impressions on : " blah blah blah, she's damn FCUKING ugly!" like dont know how many times , "you're such a LOSER!" & best , " I'VE 3TESTS ON MONDAY" and she have been repeating it since they met up until like 2-3++ slacking around?
HAHAS!
and im damn bored at a period of time that i run through my contacts looking for a suitable person to msg.
and all didnt reply me >:(
slack until the both pigs are sleeping and im still damn awake.
so i got "emo" a little.
reallly cant take it,
sleeep at the bus stop till the 1st bus come and its damn paisehs?
because from what i was told,
thats a lot of ppl at the bus stop there and im like.. lying there showing my ruin image of me sleeping or smth?
lols.
went to isabel house awhile jiu meet crystal sheryl they all.
thill 8+ luhs.
and i've yet to bathe!
HAHA!

i walk the same old road we used to walk tgt.

the memories flash back like nobody's damn business.

i totally misses you like a stupid foool.

and obviously,

i'll keep this secret in my heart.

but its also obvious that,

i reallly ~~misses~~ you.

2007-08-03T12:22:00.000+08:00

If you could see these tears I'm cryin

Touch these hands that can't stop shakin

Hear my heart that's barely beatin

can hardly walk when im out of bed.

but its still alright.

realised that this month is a weak month.

everyone is not feeling well i supposed.

everyone seems to hve at least 1 injuries?

and i rmb what sheryl said ytd:" you die no one cry."

lols.

yuan lai ru ci...

2007-07-31T22:08:00.000+08:00

yayyyyyyy!

todayyyy is the last day of JULYYYYY.

bloody hate jullly okays.

so many bad things hapen.

even the last day of julyyy,

i still got STING BY A BEEEEE!

what the helll.

normally when i was jumping tramp,

nothing will go wrong.

but todayyy, i was like bouncing for 3-4 bounce,

i injuried my left foot toes.

and now im having blue black on my 1st 3 toes>:(

how unlucky.

was supposed to have training today

but because there's common test tmr,

so quek cancelled.

went to shaw plaza for lunch/dinner.

then walked around then to masafa or whatever you spell that luhs.

had a great talk i nthe bus with crystal and sheryl.

all the memories flashed back.

and it seems to me that everydayyy,

the memories have been flashing back-.-"

develop photos,and photos again(:

TOTALLLY BIGG FUCKKKKKKKKK!

some ASSHOLES fcuking take and throw away my wallet with my precious thinggggs that i ONCE fcuking didnt treasure it.

and now .. its GONE!

pcb, throw throw throw.

its my things lahs.

knn. thats the only thing im relying on .

why do you even throw away it?

knnbccb,knb.

kao ehs! hais.

FUCK LAHS.totally moodless now >:((((((((

2007-07-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

ohno,
miss a day of school in this weeek.
science common test is on wednesday.
oh nvm.
had QUITE a good time eating i guess?
i'll have to burn away my fats tmr during training.
because i ate alllloooooooooooot today.
was supposed to buy clothes ut i cant find any so i went home after that ((:
off to revise my science(:
its rare for me to do so :X

2007-07-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BRITHDAY CRYSTAL/23DEHS!

got super dulan in the beginning.

was supposed to wear button shirt but ended up wearing a normal shirt.

asked wendy and crystal to wear but i dint.

how dumb=.=

and today,

the best dressing awards goes to:

SHERYL AND MEINING :D

went to watch "alone" today.

and its sooooo nice.

its not scary , the 'ghost' suddenly appeared will just make you jump out of your seats.

and thats what happen to me.

i hold a popcorn and i just jump out of my seat and the popcorn just POP out.

how stupid of me.

yet funnnny >.<

and how i wish ~~you~~ was there:/

like SERIOUSLYYYYYYY....

ohmy, did i just say that?

hahaha.

whatever-.-

after movie, went to shop around and then to burger king.

and a great fun today:DDDD

TO s.t.a.n.d.a.r.d -4: lets go out to get many clothes and our nike slipper one day!!:D

i reallllly miss you that badly.

you just keep appearing in my mind.

there's no way i can block you out.

i could only forget you for that while but not all the while.

i dont want to rely on this illusion anymore.

i would preferto rely on realities.

but is there anymore chance for me to do so?

)':

you're my motivation to carry on.

to let me carry on just be the thought of you.

2007-07-27T20:47:00.000+08:00

oh lord,

my baby is driving me crazy.

school is alright.

not that bad.

and mr.chen nagged us for 1period again.

which means, no science notes today.

stay back awhile then to amk hub for ban mian.

then walk around and saw st.

lols.

she runs around like amk hub is her house like that.

tsk.

over grown baby. and i hope she doesnt read this :X

lols.

i think i still cant let go.

i said im giving up,

giving up on waiting.

and i reallly mean it and im halfway through.

not even like a week im starting to regret it.

somehow i think im still waiting,am still waiting.

somehow i wish to tell you im waiting.

im still waiting.

but i know its so wrong to suddenly tell you that again.

welllll,i think there's no chance for me to tell you that again alr.

hoefully, you'll know it one fine day.

2007-07-26T17:30:00.001+08:00

almost late for shoool today again.
recently keep reaching to school JUST IN TIME.
and i wish i got sent home today but dont have.
but thats okay lahs.
had a good time in school except for 1 part where things turned out to be lik dont what kind of thing.

yimei come to my class and find me(:
ahhahas.
and i think she very "kelian" cause our school de prefects follow them whereever she go or smth?
ahahas.
wanted to stay back for training, but my ankle a bit pain and stomach a bit pain.
so i went to collectspect and went home.
but my spect isnt ready so i shall get it tomorrow:D

2007-07-25T20:16:00.000+08:00

let me REALLY let go of you.

wanted to 'run away' from school just to watch match.

are we crazy or insane?:\

but lucky their match starts at 2.30pm.

thanks god.

lols.

went to amk hub to meet adora and then cab down to SBC.

ai won.

congrats.

north zone champion(:

and that reminds me of alot of things.

untill i cant stand it.

i cant continue to watch the match alr.

i just.. cant stand it.

damnnnnn, i stil cant let go of the fact that we're out for south zone.

we know we're able to do it, we reallly can make it.

but we let our chance off like this.

why always im the one who canot perform during zhs's match?

ALWAYS):

the history happen again.

last year im the 'cause' of it)':

this year, also part of my fault.

hais.

fated bahs.

~~it reallly hurts to see you get injuried like that.~~

~~my heart totally crack just for you.~~

~~i reallly feel like giving you my care by action.~~

~~but sorry i cant.~~

~~i could only stand a side and see you in pain.~~

~~i thought i'll have a chance to show it by action.~~

~~but i know i cant.~~

~~i'll never gonna be the one.~~

~~saded)':~~

ball awhile then ball again.

keep playing and playing and playing ...

just seeing how happy you are with her

break me down into pieces.

yuan lai zhe yi xiang lai,

im not the one who can make you happpy.

ni yao de gen ben bu shi wo ):

hais.

ni happy i jiu hao bahs :\

had a great talk with sheryl in the bus.

SHERYL:be happy and dont worry.

standard-4 is always here for you((:

<3s.

sometimes i really dont wish to say this,

but i reallly cant take it.

do you treat me as a replacment/reminder/morning caller

or what?

i wanna give up alr.

i cant take it alr.

you stab me real hard deep inside.

again and again..

you're my first time and gonna be my last.

i feel like im having tons of burden.

tons of trouble.

what am i gonna do?

how am i gonna solve it?

如果那天我对你说

请不要走留下陪我

你会不会还是放开手不回头

你已经有了你幸福归凭

什么我还在这里奢求.

我不要再为谁掉眼泪

我不要再为谁而心碎

after tonight,

i'll reallly let go.

if i reallllllly could.

2007-07-22T21:01:00.000+08:00

ton throughtout the night for zhong ji yi ban.

i think im not gonna sleep tonight again because of the show.

ahhas.

sleep for only like 3-4 hours then go and get ready to go out?

just went to champ for pool then to ice kimo.

damnnnnn,

suddenly,the memories flash back again.

had a very good talk there with st.

about our past and maybe like love life?

lol-.-

and we talked about someone that makes me abit insane.

but heyyyy,thats no link behind that.

hahas.

and i think her "love life" is cooooll.

lols.

thought of going to clark quay but nahs,

do not have enough time and all.

if not there's more to blog about.

ahahs.

thats all for today.

to be continued tomorrow.

oh ya,

no phone on tuesday alr :

2007-07-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

i'll be strong,

because i've got you guys(:

okays,

i overslept again.

and i had a very wierd dreams today.

lols.

went to sbc to watch match.

crystal and i got a shock when we were sitting on something near the toilet.

the music just start without warning.

she and i bei xia dao.

and the both of us 'jumped' up.

lols.

sitting near at the 'wooden bridge' hoping for dengue fever.

lols.

pass the letter and went off.

we were afraid that they will think that we're attrating attention,

so we walked 1 round to go to macs.

but ended going back braddel.

went to find mr.quek at TTSH.

and his ward like hotel like that.

wapiang.

the view of the buliding makes me think of the 'i would rather be' the song for singapore de.

lols.

craps luhs.

lols.

went to eat and had photo taking.

ahhas!.

dont worry,

br happy.

because i know you all are here for me!((:

2007-07-17T23:46:00.000+08:00

oh man.

this is the most hurtful word i've ever received.

you totallly broke my heart into pieces.

i thought i've seen the stars shining on me and guild me through the dark.

but i was totallly in the wrong.

that was just a passerby using a torch light look for her missing love.

i didnt know it could hurt so much.

you said you like me by had feelings for her.

so what?

a heart that hold 2 person?

if so,

i rather back off.

am i lousier than her?

why do i deserve this?

dont i at least deserve something better than this?

better than the first time?

okays, i accept the fact.

but not only this.

you want me to help you forget her.

you think im a spare tyre?

ohman, i reallly cant take my dear.

whats my love for you for?

for you to toy with?

im sorry if its a bit harshed.

but i realllly very diappointed with you.

累到我无力再追

最怕你突然要挽回

回到了原点

原点却又像终点

然后多痛一遍

you already挽回到了原点

原点却又像终点

然后多痛一遍.

i know that we wont make it to the next round.

and im alr very very very sad about it alr.

but i thought i've got you.

got you to move on with me during my darkest moment.

but that was just a dream.

i'll never have you to move on with me.

you're always the one i always need.

but also always the one who's not there.

你不在当我最需要爱你却不在

我受了伤在偷偷好起来

但你不在不在.

oh well,

you said you give up.

i thought im the one whos supposed to say?):

2007-07-17T20:29:00.000+08:00

i didnt know that this could happened to me.

school is okays today.

and training is fun i supposed

fcuk lahs.

what a month,JULY

bloody shit.

so many things happen this month.

all the unpleasant things.

at first i lost my wallet when i collect team shirts.

oakys, suan liao.

then i lost my team shirt in the fcuking bus.

alr got so upset about it.

and now,

my ~~lover~~ is gone,

and i lost my teammates team shirt.

wtf am i doing?

knn.

what type of captain you got uh.

such a failure.

i think i need to do some reflection on myself.

and we're out.

how great.

congrats man.

we dont have to play for the next round alr uh?

FANTASTIC-.-

tmr is the last match.

WOW, SO HAPPY-.-

WHATEVER =.-

2007-07-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

i feel that im not a pig suddenly.
becaus ei sleep for like half an hour to an hour last night?
ahahs.
and i ardly sleep in class except for the last feel period.
lols.
went to d and t block to do.
and BIG THANKS to SHERYL and CRYSTAL
for helping me up in the gift and all.
thanks uh. realllly thanks.
ahahs.

2007-07-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

You'll have me suicidal,

When you say it's over

today is a bad day.

i thought it'll be a plasant day

but it ended up like some fcukshit thing.

except the part when meining 'played' with the ice cream uncle.

hahhaa.

and i got 2o orh cheys.lols.

and im so glad i did pinched her back.

lols.

yes,

everything ended.

within a any weapons,

my heart has been cut into many pieces.

just by the words you use,

and the feeling you feel.

i guess ethats no more chance for us to get together alr.

i dont know why/what/how/where/what the mistake went wrong.

isit because i didnt treasure/cherish you enough?

because i didnt put my 1o0 percent love or what?

just within 5 days your feeling has faded.

all the way.

how am i gonna adapt it again?

1 time isnt enough?

it tooks me like 3 months to froget it and now what?

how many months?

3mths?6mths?9mths?

or what.

i cant adapt thing fast okay.

especially my feelings.

during this 2odays with your love,

evrything seems to be so right.

but thats not gonna happen anymroe.

goodbye,mysweetheart.

i'll be waiting.

2007-07-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

i dont know what did the hell did this world had become into.

the world is crazy,

my friend is insane.

my lover is random.

i dont want this life to goes on with such situation.

i realllly dislike it.

5days.

it has been 5 days alr.

we had not been meeeting since monday?

i asked you out and you said you dont feel it.

i asked you out again and you said you prefer resting at home to going tg.

because of you,

i sacrifice my sleep to talk to you on the phone.

its not a big deal but its the effort that counts.

i thought?

within this 5 days,

your feeling had alr faded abit.

while mine is still strong as if its a new love.

your love isnt that strong as mine.

and i know my love isnt weak like yours.

our msges seemed to be so cold.

just like normal friends roughly telling each other where are they and all.

i dont like such cold msges.

i dislike such msges.

what isit gonna be if we dont meet up again?

your feeling faded as much as now?

silent break?

a break up?

or what?

I DONT WANT THIS STUFF TO HAPPEN.

i did my thinking before sending any msg to you.

im so afraid that i've misuse the word that led to misunderstanding that may end this relationship.

you choose to sleep than me.

okays.i understand.

and even if im very tired,

i chooose to at least talk to you for awhile.

i tried not to think about it alr.

but whenever i see couples around i'll think that why aint you be my side?

im not relying on you.

but i thought we shld be going all through this ?

its not a must im saying

but at least, spend your time with me?

you ratehr spend it on ball-ing.

oh welll, i accept it too.

but the worse thing is when i miss you so damn badly,

i receive nothing but full of disappointment.

so many things were left upsaid.

you choose to ignore it,

then what else can i do/say/feel/react/answer it?

wo zhen de hen shang xin,

hen nan guo.

bu yao zai zhe yang dui wo le la.

ni yao wo peng kui shi ma.

wo zhen de bu xiang shi qu ni.

i dont dare to open your letters to read it

as im afraid that i'll think about from it.

whatever it is,

i had never want to let you go and always loving you.

its mushy,

but its a must for me to voice it now.

i supposed.